I’ve been blogging for a few years and explored a number of topics, including writing, mental health and domestic violence. I’ve written empowerment posts, shared writing tips and invited you to join my online writing group.
I’ve maintained a level of consistency and then abandoned blogging altogether. I underestimated how studying for my degree would impact me, how it would change my perspective on how I contribute to the online world and how I write at all.
At the beginning of this year, I felt a shift. Blogging here felt like a weight, like a burden almost, which is strange when I only blog because I want to. It is my choice, so why does it feel so heavy?
A few months ago, I wrote about being burnt out and not wanting to write here anymore. I know the stresses of my final year at uni was a contributing factor, there’s nothing that can kill your love for writing like writing an essay you’re not interested in. So I took a little time out and now I’ve returned, hovering near a decision that I needed to make.
I don’t want to blog here anymore, and so I won’t.
I will still write, of course, but I will want to write on other things, in another space. I’m in need of fresh ideas and fresh energy, doing things the way I’ve always done them is not inspiring to me. And it’s not that I’m short on ideas, I’ve got a whole page full of potential blogging topics – but I won’t be writing any of them.
In the first instance, this felt like quitting, like I was giving up on something because it didn’t bring me the success it brings others. But now I realise that it is necessary to let go of whatever is weighing you down, so you can elevate and reach new opportunities. In the absence of blogging here, I will have time and energy for something else. I’m not quitting, I’ve just had enough and have done as much as I want to do here. I want to refocus my passion and efforts in other areas, and I’ve been spreading my creativity too thin for some time.
I made the same decision with my networking hour #HelpAQueenOut last year and it hasn’t been a decision I’ve regretted. I know in my heart what is right to do and what my next steps should be, I’m just clearing the path so I can walk with ease.
I’d like to share more on a personal level but this isn’t the place I want to do it. It doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t feel exciting or inspiring. Being in this space feels like hard work, so it’s time I took an indefinite hiatus.
Thank you so much for being here, for reading my posts and sharing your thoughts. I literally started this blog with no focus, no major goal other than to have a place for my writing. It has evolved over the years and so have I, and I trust it will remain a source of inspiration for those who need it.