I don’t want to write here anymore

I love writing but I’m a little tired of churning out content that I’m not particularly excited about. Can you relate?

My blog was published a lot like my first book; with little thought or plan, completely fueled by it being a good idea and the rest would figure itself out.

Over the years I’ve written about mental health, domestic violence, self-love and motherhood, but in the last 18 months I’ve focused on writing about writing.

I love writing, I do, I do. I can talk about writing in different ways, and I have done for some time. I even published a book on writing, encouraging the non-writers and aspiring writers of the world to at least try.

I became a Writing Coach and was guided to establish myself as an authority in this area, to demonstrate my expertise through blog posts designed to answer the questions of my potential customers. I agree wholeheartedly with that, but in the last few months I’ve grown a little tired of it and this is why.

1. I’ve stopped writing stories. I’ve stopped creating imaginary worlds, befriending new characters and illustrating their dilemmas through writing. Instead, I’m writing how-to’s and informative posts which, while I’m certain they help many people, doesn’t quite give me the same feeling that writing a story does. 

2. I’ve forgotten I’m a writer. It sounds silly, doesn’t it? But in my role of Writing Coach and workshop facilitator, I’ve forgotten that I too like to write. I need to write. I don’t write because I’m good at it or because I want a big following, although neither is a bad thing at all. I write because it is my way of connecting with my thoughts, organising my response to the world and coping with life. It’s been a part of who I am for as long as I remember, but I’ve allowed my other roles to take over.

3. I’ve stopped making time for my writing. I’ve been fooling myself into thinking that making time to blog is the same thing, but I’m telling you it’s not. It might be different for those who don’t feel compelled to write, who pick up blogging as a hobby and nothing more. Writing is so much of who I am, not making time for the type of writing I love is like not making time for self-love. How can I figure my thoughts, my goals and my ideas, if I’m not making time to write about it?

4. I haven’t given myself a break. Not from writing, but from blogging. From being present online. From being a source of information and guidance. I’ve not taken enough time to tune out of production so I can tune into creativity. I’ve talked about it. I’ve managed a social media break. But an official “I’m not going to blog here for a while break”? I haven’t done it. I can’t see myself doing it, at least not for a while.

5. I’m not inspired. I believe we can write even when we aren’t inspired. I know I can receive a brief and can write something in response to it, even if it isn’t a topic I love. But I don’t want to do it here any more. It’s not what I started doing. It’s not what I set out to do when I launched this blog. It has certainly served as a way to create a platform, but I’m beyond the point of writing posts purely to get my name out. I used to stay up until 3am writing because I was incredibly inspired by everything in my life. I haven’t felt that for a while, and if I had? It’s unlikely I’d put it here because I’ve only been writing about writing here.

This post will read as a bit of a moan and I really don’t mind if it comes across that way. I think we all get a little fed up, right? I think most creatives and artists tire of routine and schedule, and go searching for something new. I know I’ll be doing the same after May, after I’ve submitted my final university assignment and left with my whole future to work on all the things that excited me.

Maybe it’s time I gave myself the opportunity to figure out what that could be.

Thank you for reading.

 

 


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I’d like to bring your attention to Episode 20: Big opportunities don’t land in idle hands. Here’s what I did and what you can do to make BIG THINGS happen.

In this episode, I encourage you to stop waiting for opportunities to find you – go out and create them!

Did you know I wanted my own radio show?

Did you know I was interviewed to be a presenter of one?

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