I’ve toyed with the idea of sharing this again but it is a really important part of my journey and why I do what I do.
I’ve been on my self-love journey for a little over three years now and it has indeed been a journey. I hadn’t appreciated it as much as I could have done until I came across on old photo on Facebook memories.
I remember that photo being taken on the left, at my favourite event, wearing a top that I loved and feeling proud of myself for having been able to look directly at the camera and smile in the first place.
For a long time I hadn’t even been able to look at myself in the mirror. I couldn’t make eye contact with myself, I didn’t like what I saw and I avoided taking photos for the same reason.
When I look at the photos from back then to now, it is more than apparent that I have undergone a transformation. I wear red lipstick now but it’s more than that. I take better care of my hair and it looks healthy now but it’s more than that. I eat more fruit now than I ever did but my transformation is more than that. It’s more than what I look like.
I wouldn’t say I was ever ugly, I don’t think anyone is. I think beauty really is in the eye of the beholder but for me when I looked in the mirror I couldn’t see it for a long time. I saw something ugly and repulsive and I couldn’t take it. I didn’t see me, I saw somebody I didn’t even know.
In the last three years I’ve learned that the ugliness I was seeing instead was actually unhappiness. I was unhappy with myself, my life and the unhealthy situations I had found myself in. I was unhappy and I felt powerless to change. I didn’t know I could change my life. I didn’t love myself but I didn’t know I needed to in order to fulfil my full potential.
What you see now is not a woman who wears loads more make up, who has had plastic surgery or botox, or a woman who enrolled on a heavy gym regime or diet plan.
What you see now is a woman who can truly say she loves herself and it shows because I glow. I glow because I am happy with me, I am happy with my life and the people in it.
I had to learn to address and accept my past, forgive myself for my present and allow myself room to grow and take action to be the woman I knew my mum would be proud of.
We can post positive quotes all day long but the real impact is made when we bring the movement to the people. So join us. Embark on your self-love journey. Give yourself the time, love and energy you give to others. Because you are worth your effort.