Who I Am Now vs Who I Was Then

self esteem postI love this quote so much πŸ’–πŸ‘‘

It’s so accurate and my lovely soul sistah sent it to me.

It’s a blessing to have people that understand me.

Recently a former friend contacted me and implied that back when we were friends, around two years ago, I was being fake. She said:
“I also wish you had been your true self instead of acting shy and timid. That’s not who you are, you appear more confident than I ever knew.”

Lol. I was shocked and surprised that someone who I once confided in, and knew what I was dealing with at that time, could misunderstand me in such a way.

I don’t need to prove myself to a single soul but I am sharing this here because I want to remind you that we change. We grow. We evolve. Sometimes out circumstances change and so do the people around us.

I am not the same person I was two years ago. If you knew me then and know me now, you will know. I am not even the same person I was at the start of the year. My personal growth is constant and even now I am working on areas of my confidence that still need work. I’m a work in progress, but aren’t we all?

Some people will feel uncomfortable with your growth. They’ll want to throw you off and constantly remind you of where you came from, of the time that you were at your lowest, of the time where you could barely raise your head as you walked, of the time you were riddled with anxiety and living on the edge because of all the abuse and harassment you had experienced. Whatever it was or is, some people want to keep you there. They want you to grow but not too much. They want you to be happy, but not too happy.

moiWho I am is a reflection of where I’m at in my life. I’m always true. Two years ago I wasn’t happy but I was working hard on it and had begun my self love journey. I could barely look in the mirror, couldn’t make eye contact with myself in the mirror because I didn’t like what I saw.

Unhappiness is ugly and I didn’t want to see it. So I worked hard.

And here I am. Happy. Confident. Authentic. Fabulous. My life, and all the people in it, reflect that.

I wasn’t always this way which is why I promote self love so much. It changed my life but it had to come from within.


One Comment Add yours

  1. This makes me 😊 I can relate. Seems like you’ve come a long way! Onwards and upwards girl! X


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